Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Counting my blessings
The story of my daughter is an intense one of longing and disappointment and finally triumph. I tried to have her for so many years. And after a long struggle with infertility- I was able to get pregnant with the help of some amazing IVF doctors. She was my first miracle. For any of your who have undergone IVF, you know that it isn't an easy road. You spend thousands upon thousands of dollars for the mere chance that you might get pregnant. My husband and I decided that we could not do it again. So with great sadness, I thought my daughter would be an only child. My siblings have always been an integral part of my identity... I was so sad at the thought that she would be without that experience. And then, last year in January, when my daughter was two years old, I became pregnant. At age 42, I gave birth to my beautiful son. My second little miracle. Life can be pretty wonderful.
So... I am back to work, and although I can sit and feel extremely sorry for myself- I have been amazingly blessed. I am trying to stay in relationship with that notion about myself. That I may not be rich, or get to stay home, or have a job that I love, but I am blessed beyond words.
Ps. I promise that the next blog entry will be more happy upbeat and full of art!
Posted by Deann LMFT at 10:50 PM