Friday, January 29, 2010
Last week off..
When I first became a therapist, I thought it was some kind of calling. I always cared so much for the struggle of other people- but now I don't feel the same way. I feel like it has just been another form of martyrdom. Putting others before myself - like so many of my Latina ancestors before me. To say "I want" always felt so selfish. It always felt like I should only "need". Does that make sense? I still care deeply about others. I give my money and my voice whenever I can- but I want to put the same energy into me. As a therapist, you hear so many stories of heartache and trauma. It can be deeply affecting. Maybe things will feel different when I get back to work. Maybe this time away will help me to feel a healthy distance and I can feel some balance.
I haven't made much art this week- too busy visiting blogs on the OWOH magical carpet ride! Which has been amazing! I have been exposed to so many wonderful artists! I am so inspired to create- maybe tonight when everyone goes to bed I will try to make a painting.
Posted by Deann LMFT at 4:26 PM