Saturday, May 8, 2010

Distractions...

First- sorry I haven't written in a couple of weeks!  Life has been hectic.. as usual.  I wonder sometimes how I manage to be so busy.  I sometimes think that there is something about my constitution that hates sitting still.  Maybe it is the ADHD.  Not sure exactly.  I need to work on my ability to say "NO"... but I think that is pretty much like most women I know.  So, I end up seizing every opportunity and stretching myself to the point of almost breaking... and as long as I don't break, I don't really learn my lesson.
My biggest distraction was definitely my trip to Texas and my brother's wedding.  My mother is doing so well.  The cancer is in remission and she was able to hold her grandson for the first time.  So much of her illness I repressed while I was pregnant and after Leo's birth.  It was too much to think of my mother struggling with cancer.  I called her daily- I prayed- but I didn't really let the full recognition of what was happening seep into my psyche.  Seeing her dance with my brother at the wedding made me realize that I could have lost her.  It broke me.  I cried through the whole song.   I feel so blessed that she is healing and strong.  I also realized that I want to move closer to my family as soon as possible...
Other distractions- I am still moving things around my home... trying to create spaces for all of the creative people in our family.  I need an art studio, my husband needs a music studio, and my children need a dedicated space to play.  I will post some pictures this week of my little studio thus far...
I also finished a painting for another non-profit auction.  It was for "Project Commotion" which does movement based work with children.  I worked on a painting for a while- then realized that it was about my daughter and I couldn't donate it.  More about that later.  I finally finished an old painting.  I think I started it when I wanted to escape.  Not really feeling like escaping anymore, I just kind of would like a day to nap.

6 comments:

rebecca said...

i love this painting. the nature of life tugging at your heart...your sleeves.
learning to say no seems difficult when framed in these words...
learning to choose wisely, easier to embrace. seems you have made the greatest decision already, moving closer to family.
before my son was born i traveled the world. home was in mendocino with a studio, dear friends, art studio and ocean just steps away. work was the Queen Elizabeth II and cruising the world in three month increments. it was the easiest and most exciting time of my life.

i let go of it all to become a mother. and once my son was born i realized the idea of raising him without extended family weaving in and out of our lives rang empty by comparison to all that beauty.

so we left all that for me was a perfect fit for family and the mountains of arizona.

as we approach my son's high school graduation in just a few weeks i cannot imagine the landscape of our lives without the richness of family.

so from the high desert of arizona i send you my warmest regards for a blessed mothers day! encouragement for following your heart and time to be in each new moment drinking it all in.
enjoy!

Ayala Art said...

Those are great news, to have your mom feeling better again!

Caya-Papaya said...

Thanks for all of your well wishes:-) It was nice to hear your story Rebecca. I love your interpretation of my painting. It really resonated with me. I also liked the way you frame choosing. I will definitely give that a try!

Faerie Moon Creations said...

So happy to hear that your mom is in remission. Look at the joy in her face while holding her grandson! Your newest painting is quite striking. Excellent work. :) Theresa

Diane said...

Love your art and I'm a new follower, but I just wanted to say that I'm happy for your Mom's news--your children are beautiful.

Juliette Crane said...

Wow! You are so inspiring! I adore your artwork, so beautiful and meaningful. Thank you so much for sharing! I'm so happy to have found your wonderful shop and blog and can't wait to stop back again and see more :)

best wishes,
juliette

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