Distractions...

First- sorry I haven't written in a couple of weeks!  Life has been hectic.. as usual.  I wonder sometimes how I manage to be so busy.  I sometimes think that there is something about my constitution that hates sitting still.  Maybe it is the ADHD.  Not sure exactly.  I need to work on my ability to say "NO"... but I think that is pretty much like most women I know.  So, I end up seizing every opportunity and stretching myself to the point of almost breaking... and as long as I don't break, I don't really learn my lesson.

My biggest distraction was definitely my trip to Texas and my brother's wedding.  My mother is doing so well.  The cancer is in remission and she was able to hold her grandson for the first time.  So much of her illness I repressed while I was pregnant and after Leo's birth.  It was too much to think of my mother struggling with cancer.  I called her daily- I prayed- but I didn't really let the full recognition of what was happening seep into my psyche.  Seeing her dance with my brother at the wedding made me realize that I could have lost her.  It broke me.  I cried through the whole song.   I feel so blessed that she is healing and strong.  I also realized that I want to move closer to my family as soon as possible...

Other distractions- I am still moving things around my home... trying to create spaces for all of the creative people in our family.  I need an art studio, my husband needs a music studio, and my children need a dedicated space to play.  I will post some pictures this week of my little studio thus far...

I also finished a painting for another non-profit auction.  It was for "Project Commotion" which does movement based work with children.  I worked on a painting for a while- then realized that it was about my daughter and I couldn't donate it.  More about that later.  I finally finished an old painting.  I think I started it when I wanted to escape.  Not really feeling like escaping anymore, I just kind of would like a day to nap.