In one week I have to go back to work. No more staying home with my little one- breast feeding through the Today show and then making art while he sleeps. I love how he wakes up in his swing and watches me make art. So peaceful, joyful, and content. I love him so much that every part of me aches. The sadness I feel about going back to work is overwhelming. I also am completely worried about my mother who is battling cancer a thousand miles away from me. I want to go home. I want to be with my family. I don't want to go to work. It is so hard to be a therapist and put all of my own problems and issues neatly away so that I can be present for someone else.
I have to focus on what is good in my life.. and the fact that in this economy, I am lucky that I am paid well to do the work that I do. I am just going to try to keep focused on what kind of life I want- and really work hard to find ways to create the life I am desperate for. It may not happen right now.. but it will happen soon
3 comments:
congrats on the sweet new addition to your family.
Sorry to hear about your mother. I am sure she understands. I pray for her successful fight!
Love to you all.
oo he's beautiful! warmest wishes for strength...for your mother and for you
What an adorable baby. It's tough to have to go back to work, but you sound like you are a strong person who will cope with this. I hope you find time still to pursue your artistic talents.
Sorry to hear about your mother.
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