Friday, January 21, 2011

Haiku my heart: maya

crooning so loudly
meow meow meow me
and no one can sleep

My cat, Maya, loves to hear herself talk.  She meows constantly.  When we got her, they said, "She is very talkative."  I remember at the time thinking that was a good thing.  Now I know it was a euphemism for crying at all hours of the day and night.  She especially loves to cry on those nights that I have difficulty getting the children to sleep.   She has some other annoying habits too.  She eats anything - plastic bags, Barbie's hands, my leather boots, her own fur.  We tried giving her anti-anxiety medications, but that was not very easy- and super expensive.  We have two cats.  Zinn the cat is more mellow.  The strong quiet type.  

Maya really is more my husband's cat.  Animal lovers, please don't hate me, but Maya is a difficult cat to love.  She is part of our family, and so I try to get along with her as best I can... but sometimes I do daydream about finding her a new home.   I work all day with behaviorally disturbed children- who wants to come home to a behaviorally disturbed cat?  She is a very beautiful cat though....  talkative and a little disturbed, but beautiful.

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Thursday, January 13, 2011

Haiku my heart - Drama Queen

Such a drama queen
emotion crowned tantrum bound
spilling everywhere

I started today with my daughter deciding to use the flat screen tv as the basis for her newest crayola masterpiece.  I ended the day realizing that my son probably has a fever.  Sandwiched between these two experiences was a not so fun work day.  I came home to a disheveled home, loads of laundry, and nothing for dinner.  I have a headache.  My back hurts.  My hair is falling out.  (okay, that is because I am still breastfeeding- but it still pretty much sucks.)
So, I am having my adult tantrum here on Haiku Friday.  (And I wonder where my daughter gets it from).
This was the only picture I could find in my archive that seemed to match my emotional state. (I wonder how many people have ever photographed themselves in a faux tantrum- didn't I have a picture of my daughter in a fake pout last week?)  I hope everyone else is faring better than I have in the last twenty four hours.  (Okay and I used a little artistic license with crowned... it is really two syllables, but it just felt better than crown).

Does anyone know how to get crayon off an LCD screen?

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Thursday, January 6, 2011

Haiku my heart - imp


Winged little imp
nose upturned with pouty lips
"I will fly away"

I took this picture of my daughter standing in front of an abstract painting that I made several years ago.   I often try to do abstract paintings, but whenever I do- the figurative painter in me becomes bored and unhappy with the finished product.  I have always felt that the painting has needed something.  For some reason, I keep seeing a large close up view of my daughter pouting at the bottom of the painting.. so the other day, I had her stand in front of it and make a little pouty face.  She is pretty good at those.  I had some fun with photoshop and ended up with this.  I still want to do a painting on the bottom- but life is a bit too hectic to take that on for now. 
I am so happy to be able to be back sharing haikus!

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Sunday, January 2, 2011

new year - more promises...


With each new year comes new promises.  Some of the promises I keep.  Some I consciously decide I am not ready for.  Others simply fall by the wayside.  My vision board this year is full of broken promises to myself.  I joked with my partner that I don't even need to do a new vision board this year - since I pretty much haven't met any of last years goals.  As I get older, I realize that so much of my life is lived in the moment.  I want to be this super organized planner of my life, but life doesn't really work out that way. 
Having children just makes that even more so.
But I do think that having some written goals are important.  So, here are a few
  1. I want to show more gratitude.
  2. I want to be present for my children.
  3. I want to be present in my relationships.
  4. I want to continue to strive for a life where aside from family, art can be at my center.
I haven't written in my blog for a while.  My son started daycare, which has meant we have all been super ill for the last three months.  I just finished my last antibiotic- but am not feeling all together healthy.  My job situation changed recently, and due to some pretty hefty budget cuts to mental health services for children, I am back to doing an old part of my job that I had hoped I was done with. I have also been focusing some of my creative energy on a new ETSY store that I created that is centered around some of the artwork  I have been making for my son.
 So I have been busy - but I have missed writing my blog and reading the comments that are left for me.  This blog is important to me, and I love the people I have met through it- so it is something that I feel I want to recommit to this year.  So, sorry I have been absent.  I will try to be better:-)

Happy New Year!
May the year bring you laughter, creativity, love, beauty, inspiration, wonder, and connection.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Haiku my heart- bridge


one side of the bridge
is the constant overwhelm
the other side is peace

I haven't written since September.  I have two children under the age of five, I work full time as a mental health therapist, I teach at two universities, I am reading three theses (is that the plural of thesis?) for three of my students, I supervise interns, and I try to make and sell art.  I am in constant overwhelm and my poor little blog has suffered (my family is not very happy either.)

Lately, I have been looking more critically at this whole overwhelm thing.  Why do I overbook myself?  Is the constant buzz of being busy distracting me from something else?  The real problem is that in the past, I overbooked but always met my deadlines and met the expectations of those around me.  With two little ones, I am not quite so able.  A sick child (I have one right now) throws my entire schedule into a tizzy.  
I have been reading a wonderful book called "Healing Rage" by Ruth King.  She says that it is anger that I am distracting myself from.  She also talks about a fear of being still.  Something in this resonates.  The only time I feel still is when I make art.  It feels meditative... and I haven't done any of that lately either.  Something about this revelation feels so important right now.   I have to gather up some courage to be still and see what happens.  Anyway, that is where I have been and what I have been doing.  I have missed my Friday Haikus!   Anyone else suffer from a constant need to be busy?

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